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so today I found out that I'm a failure at the very thing I'm supposed to be best at. I failed the $139 A+ operating systems exam test for the second time. WITH THE EXACT SAME SCORE. This failure has caused me to become bitter and strangely introspective. I found that even when I'm in the worst mood possible (quite possibly the wost mood I've ever been in), I'm still disgustingly polite to people. Like the fat woman and her equally fat daughter taking up an entire isle at Wal-Mart. Instead of glaring at them and suggesting a 'wide load' sign, I quietly said "excuse me" and flattened myself against a rack of mothers day cards to get by them. I envy those people who have the ability to go off on people. I wish for once I would work up the balls to stop in the middle of the street, put my car in park, and go back to cuss out the dumbfuck who is tailgating me. I know I have it in me to be evil. John and I recently discussed how I'm the most coldhearted person we know. My mood is best explain by a quote from fight club. "I wanted to put a bullet between the eyes of every panda that wouldn't screw to save it's species." Right now I really want to punch some asshole in the face or fuck a girl till she passes out. Sign my guestbook to voulenteer for either.
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